Are you ok? You haven't been on in a while did you do something stupid over what happened with your gf?
I haven’t done something stupid, that would only upset my girlfriend more. I’m sorry I haven’t been on lately but I haven’t really been doing anything lately. I’m not all that okay.. My anxieties been really bad the last 2 and a bit weeks and I’ve started vomiting again :/ I haven’t been eating or sleeping much and I’ve lost 2kgs :/ the worst part is I only feel like this because about a month and a half ago I made a mistake with the girl I love more than anything in this world and I’ve upset her.. I hate myself for what I did and I’d do anything to make it all okay again. She means more to me than anything else ever has and is literally my oldest and best friend as well as a girlfriend.. I know I deserve all this but it’s hard for me to maintain things like my blog when I’m not really functioning very well so I understand if you unfollow me. Thank you for your concern though.
If she does leave you, it's going to hurt because it matters, but it will be okay. You don't deserve to feel this way, okay? It was just a bad mistake, don't keep punishing yourself. Every mistake has a consequence, and we have to face it. It will hurt, but you will be okay <3!
This is part of my consequence. I’m just scared I guess. She’s been in my life since we were babies (literally) and means more to me than anyone else in the world. Thank you so much for being so sweet though, it does mean a lot that you care <3
I agree what you did was shitty, but you do not deserve to feel like this! You made a simple mistake, and all. It *IS* okay, as long as you get over, and don't do it again. You are an amazing person, so don't forget it.
It was shitty, and more of a shitty mistake but I feel like I do and I won’t be so okay if she leaves. She’s honestly the best thing to ever happen to me and always been in my life. She’s the first person I’ve ever loved like this and the only person to ever make me truly happy. If I lose her I won’t forgive myself. Thank you so much though for the message.
What exactly was it that happened to you at school today?
Um well I made a big mistake with my girlfriend Kayla about a month and a half ago.. and I honestly hate myself for it but today she was talking about breaking up with me because of it. She means the world to me and I know I fucked up but she’s my oldest and best friend and such an amazing girlfriend and losing her would be so horrible. But anyway I got really anxious about it today and I threw up once at home in the morning and then again at school in the bathroom. In last period it started getting to me more and more and I passed out for a little because I wasn’t breathing properly but I came to fine. I’m perfectly healthy it’s just my anxiety and I deserve this. I’m still very anxious and I’d do anything so that she wouldn’t dump me. I feel more strongly about her than I have about anyone.
Why do you deserve it tho? You made a mistake and you seem really sorry about it
I am really sorry about it, but it was still wrong and Kayla’s still mad. The fact I upset her alone is reason enough to be angry at myself and she’s still very upset, not to mention what I did so I deserve it.